Meg & Lou: My way or the highway.

I'm a nanny.

It definitely has its ups and downs. Taking care of kids is something I love, but when there are 5 of them.. things can tend to get a bit overwhelming. I love the family and the kids. They are precious. Taylin: 14, Tori: 9, Tianna: 7, Talie: 2, and Tiffany: 7 months. Not only are there 5 of them, but as you can see, they are all T's! It's like a nanny's worst nightmare. When I first started I couldn't for the life of me remember all their names.

But, like I said, at times things can get a bit overwhelming.

I know that God has me in this specific place at this specific times. A couple weeks ago I almost threw in the towel. I couldn't stand it anymore. I was getting so frustrated over EVERYTHING. Tiffany wouldn't stop crying, Talie is in her terrible 2's stage. Every little thing was getting under my skin.

UNTIL...

This week.

God has really been messing me up.

I try to always try to be in a place where I can allow God to take out of me what doesn't belong. He did just that this weekend. ~~Not very easily,~~ might I add. Because, although I'm trying, I'm not perfect. At times, I am really prideful. I'm flawed.

This weekend I got into an argument with a good friend. The point they were trying to make was simply: Be open to the different ways God wants to do things. Don't be so stuck in your own way.

That's it.

But it was a 45 minute ~~debate~~ argument, that covered everything that had been frustrated us the past few weeks. I was being super prideful, although I didn't realize it at the time.

My guard was up and I was defending my case... AKA pride.

So concluding that meeting, I felt like I was still right and they just didn't understand.

The next day, I had another good friend say ALMOST the exact same things. I knew it was God, because it wasn't even on topic. It just seemed SO random.

'I GET IT, GOD.' Was literally the thought I had.

The quote that was pretty much our motto my first year of Master's Commission was:

"Blessed are the flexible, for they will not be bent out of shape."

VIOLA!

It hit me.

I have had this mindset that it's my way or the highway. If I can't do it my way, then I don't want to do it. Which is disgustingly prideful. It's basically saying, "I think my way is the better than your's." Ew...

Well as I started to pray about it and figure out what all God was trying to teach me, He began to reveal so many areas in my life that were being affected by this way of thinking.

I began to realize that my job as a nanny frustrated me and made me so angry because, at times, things wouldn't go as I had planned in my head. The mom would do something to wake the baby up, I couldn't leave and go somewhere like I planned, someone came into town, Talie is in a bad mood today...

Instead of just rolling with the punches, I would get SOOOOOO mad.

The reality is: I'm not in control of anything. If I lived my life getting upset at everything that didn't go according to plan... I'd be one angry girl.

I've been reading the devotional, Jesus Calling. ((I love it. I definitely suggest getting it.))

On October 3rd it all made sense to me:

"When many things seem to be going wrong, trust Me. When your life feels increasingly out of control, thank Me. These are supernatural responses, and they can lift you above your circumstances. If you do what comes naturally in the face of difficulties, you may fall prey to negativism."

"Cry out to Me in My Name! Affirm your trust in Me, regardless of how you feel."

It really opened my eyes. I never thought about it that way before.

So, all that to say..

I don't know everything. My way isn't the only way. God can accomplish anything SO many different ways. Why stick to one?

I just have to trust God in the times when I've 'lost control'.

Like I'm in control anyways, right? ;)

Many are the plans in a person’s heart

but it is the Lord’s purpose that prevails.