My way or the highway.

I'm a nanny.

It definitely has its ups and downs. Taking care of kids is something I love, but when there are 5 of them.. things can tend to get a bit overwhelming. I love the family and the kids. They are precious. Taylin: 14, Tori: 9, Tianna: 7, Talie: 2, and Tiffany: 7 months. Not only are there 5 of them, but as you can see, they are all T's! It's like a nanny's worst nightmare. When I first started I couldn't for the life of me remember all their names. 

But, like I said, at times things can get a bit overwhelming. 

I know that God has me in this specific place at this specific times. A couple weeks ago I almost threw in the towel. I couldn't stand it anymore. I was getting so frustrated over EVERYTHING. Tiffany wouldn't stop crying, Talie is in her terrible 2's stage. Every little thing was getting under my skin. 

UNTIL...

This week. 

God has really been messing me up. 

I try to always try to be in a place where I can allow God to take out of me what doesn't belong. He did just that this weekend. Not very easily, might I add.  Because, although I'm trying, I'm not perfect. At times, I am really prideful. I'm flawed. 

This weekend I got into an argument with a good friend. The point they were trying to make was simply: Be open to the different ways God wants to do things. Don't be so stuck in your own way.

That's it. 

But it was a 45 minute debate argument, that covered everything that had been frustrated us the past few weeks. I was being super prideful, although I didn't realize it at the time. 

My guard was up and I was defending my case... AKA pride. 

So concluding that meeting, I felt like I was still right and they just didn't understand. 

The next day, I had another good friend say ALMOST the exact same things. I knew it was God, because it wasn't even on topic. It just seemed SO random. 

'I GET IT, GOD.' Was literally the thought I had. 

The quote that was pretty much our motto my first year of Master's Commission was:

"Blessed are the flexible, for they will not be bent out of shape."

VIOLA!

It hit me. 

I have had this mindset that it's my way or the highway. If I can't do it my way, then I don't want to do it. Which is disgustingly prideful. It's basically saying, "I think my way is the better than your's." Ew...

Well as I started to pray about it and figure out what all God was trying to teach me, He began to reveal so many areas in my life that were being affected by this way of thinking. 

I began to realize that my job as a nanny frustrated me and made me so angry because, at times, things wouldn't go as I had planned in my head. The mom would do something to wake the baby up, I couldn't leave and go somewhere like I planned, someone came into town, Talie is in a bad mood today...

Instead of just rolling with the punches, I would get SOOOOOO mad. 

The reality is: I'm not in control of anything. If I lived my life getting upset at everything that didn't go according to plan... I'd be one angry girl. 

I've been reading the devotional, Jesus Calling. ((I love it. I definitely suggest getting it.))

On October 3rd it all made sense to me:

"When many things seem to be going wrong, trust Me. When your life feels increasingly out of control, thank Me. These are supernatural responses, and they can lift you above your circumstances. If you do what comes naturally in the face of difficulties, you may fall prey to negativism."

"Cry out to Me in My Name! Affirm your trust in Me, regardless of how you feel."

It really opened my eyes. I never thought about it that way before. 

So, all that to say..

I don't know everything. My way isn't the only way. God can accomplish anything SO many different ways. Why stick to one? 

I just have to trust God in the times when I've 'lost control'. 

Like I'm in control anyways, right? ;)

Many are the plans in a person’s heart

but it is the Lord’s purpose that prevails.                                    

                               Proverbs 19:21

Love, Meg

TGIF.

Counting my blessings today. 

Friday is a perfect day for that. 

Enjoy!

One step at a time..

As I sit here at Cafe Express, stressing out about my future and this work I need to get done, this song plays on the loudspeaker. Couldn't of asked for a better reminder.

Relax. Breathe. One step at a time.

love, meg

Unfamiliar territory..

I believe, there's times when God is different things in your life. For example: strength, joy, hope, refuge.. I mean, He is all these things, but in certain seasons He is more of what you need at that time.

Right now, God is my Father.
This has been a really weird season for me.. I feel vulnerable. Which is very unusual to me because I tend to keep my emotions pretty under control. But lately I just can't seem to keep up.
From the smallest action to the most insensitive words, I feel as if they all hurt the same. And it's not this unbearable hurt, it's more of a sharp sting of hurt.. in my gut.
My life isn't terribly bad right now, I am just in unfamiliar territory. A place my heart and I have never been before.

I'm comforted day in and day out know that God is my Father. Someone I can always rely on to be there. When I get overwhelmed by the people and things going on around me, I know I can..  

      "He says, “Be still, and know that I am God" Psalm 46:10 

God is the best listener. He is ALWAYS there. He never judges. He loves me unconditionally. He fights for me. He cares when I hurt. He believes in my like nobody else. HE IS MY FATHER. 

 

 "See what great love the Father has lavished on us, that we should be called children of God! And that is what we are!"

1 John 3:1

 

“The LORD your God is with you, he is mighty to save. He will take great delight in you, he will quiet you with his love, he will rejoice over you with singing."

Zephaniah 3:17

"The Lord is my shepherd; I shall not want. He makes me lie down in green pastures. He leads me beside still waters. He restores my soul. He leads me in paths of righteousness for his name's sake. Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for you are with me; your rod and your staff, they comfort me. You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies; you anoint my head with oil; my cup overflows."
Psalm 23:1-6

"Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, The Father of compassion and the God of all comfort, who comforts us in all our troubles, so that we can comfort those in any trouble"

2 Corinthians 1:3-7

"Never will I leave you; never will I forsake you." 

Hebrews13:5

"And He said to me, My grace is sufficient for you: For my power is made perfect in weakness. Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weakness, so that Christ’s power may rest on me." 2 Corinthians 12:9

“I have loved you with an everlasting love; I have drawn you with unfailing kindness." Jeremiah 31:3

Motivation Monday!

 

 

Happy Monday!

Love, meg

Worth.

Worth.

That's always been such a sensitive topic for me. It's definitely one of the things I struggled with the most growing up, and still today. Self Worth. It has literally haunted me. That quiet roar telling me that I'm not good enough. That I'm not loved. That no one notices me. That if I was gone, I wouldn't be missed.

I never understood why I felt this way. I don't have a bad life. I have friends and a God who love me and a family who may not be perfect, but I still have a family. It has never made sense to me.

Right now, I'm reading a book called Captivating by John and Stasi Eldredge. It is absolutely amazing.

I was reading it a couple days ago at work and I came across a few sentences that have completely blown my mind.  

"A woman's struggle with her sense of worth points to something glorious she was designed to be. The great emptiness we feel points to the great place we were created for."

How amazing is that? The struggle I have with my self worth is a result of the purpose and destiny God has designed for my life. I feel empty and wanting because there's something incredible that I have yet to achieve.

If you have questioned your sense of worth and struggled with the mindset that YOU MATTER, take heart. God has something planned for you that you could only dream of.


For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.

                                                                                    Jeremiah 29:11

Just a few things from these past few weeks that have challenged me, encouraged me, made me happy, or put a smile on my face.



Love, meg