Meg & Lou: August 2011

Monday, August 15, 2011

A VERY new perspective..

When I was in the hospital, I remember just lying there thinking of all the things I wouldn't be able to do anymore. I was literally thinking of the craziest things. But I found myself regretting A LOT of things.. but it wasn't anything I'd done in the past. It was all the things I DIDN'T do.

I remember wishing I'd gone on some of the adventures with my roommates, or that I hadn't let emotions control me throughout the year, or that I wouldn't let laziness get the best of me. I took a hard look at my life and I realized I had put so much importance and value on things that meant NOTHING. For example, I have about 3 shows that I try to keep up with every week.. why?? What's that doing to affect the Kingdom, for good? Absolutely nothing.

       When I was lying in the hospital bed, I wasn't wishing that I could watch my TV shows, or take a nap, or spend some time by myself. Those were some of the things that I always tried doing pre-condition. No, I found myself wanting to be with the people I love. To talk to them, and hang out with them, and just to laugh! I wanted to watch the sunrise and set. I wanted to swim, run, bike, hike, climb. All the things that I'm limited to. Things that I never appreciated before I was sick.

        Before the summer even began, I remember praying and asking God to teach me how to love people, unconditionally; like He does. Never in a million years would I have ever thought He'd answer that prayer this way. After I got out of the hospital, I was stuck on the couch just laying for about a week and a half. Just me and my sister. I wanted nothing more than to just see SOMEONE. ANYONE. It didn't matter who it was, I just wanted to hang out with somebody and talk to somebody. When I was able to hang out with one of my friends, it was like the best thing in the world. I was grateful for every second. I never wanted it to end. God has grown my heart for people. The love I have for people now is crazy. God can answer our prayers in any way He chooses.. This is the way He chose for me, and I wouldn't have it any other way.

        I realized how truly blessed I am, and the incredible people God has put into my life. The strength of my friends is what keeps me fighting. I have some of the strongest friends anybody can have. I am SO grateful for them.

        Needless to say, when I created this blog, God put NEW PERSPECTIVE on my heart. That was going to be my theme this summer, and my theme it has been! Never before have I ever had the faith, trust, and hope in God that I have right now. It feels like God has given me a second chance at my life. But this time around, I'm grateful for every second. For every person. For every blessing.

"Now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see." Hebrews 11:1


Baby Eliana.. I'M IN LOVE!

Leo!

I am LOVING this song this summer.

Reminded me of MCUSA :)

Baby Noah!!

Taking notes at Invictus, and found this.. brought to you BY Jessica Pabon <3

My heart is in this youth group.

A nest on the porch.. CRAZY!

Love, Meg

Friday, August 5, 2011

Grateful

It has been over a month since I last posted. I feel like it has been a lifetime! I've been dreading an update.. not because I hate blogging, but because God has completely rocked/flipped/transformed/changed my life since June 20th. I have learned sooo many lessons, that I don't even know where to start.

Well on July 11th, I was diagnosed with a condition called Pseudotumor Cerebri. Pseudotumor cerebri occurs when the pressure inside your skull (intracranial pressure) increases for no obvious reason. Symptoms mimic those of a brain tumor, but no tumor is present. It's a result of too much spinal fluid.
I went to Arizona on Saturday, July 2nd and was there for 3 days. It was a ROUGH 3 days. I was in the E.R 3 different times because my head was throbbing.. on day 3 I couldn't even keep water down. They thought I had a pinched nerve in my back (really?!). So my mom flew me home on Wednesday.. Which might not have been the smartest thing, because that couldn't of done any justice to the pressure in my head, but hey! I would of given anything just to get back home.
So Wednesday night, my mom took me to Medical City in Dallas, because when I was younger I had to be in the hospital for a bit, so my mom loves that place. It's a really really good hospital.
They had to run all sorts of tests to rule out meningitis and aneurysm.. FUNNN.. -_-
I'll spare the details of all the fun hospital stuff.. but I was admitted early Thursday morning, and was in there for 6 days. When I was younger, I remember loving being in the hospital.. free food.. free soda.. free snacks.. but this time, I wasn't a fan. It wasn't as exciting as it was when I was 12.

Well.. to kind of summarize all this rambling.. they put me on medication to see if it could be controlled by that.

The rest of the story is a SURPRISE :)
I will have a much better update coming sooooooon.. but I just wanted to get the boring information of the condition out there first.. before I shared everything Jesus has been rocking my world with.

But before I go.. I do want to share (quickly and summarized) the biggest lesson, BY FAR, that Jesus has/is teaching me..

Take nothing for granted!

I have never in my life, been so grateful for every breath I take. I've never been so humbled. I keep finding myself overwhelmed by God's grace. Most of the time, I don't even have the words to describe it...

All I know.. is I love my life... and I love God.. SO MUCH

***I've decided to start posting some pictures of the things that have brought joy and happiness to my life lately.. I hope you guys enjoy them as much as I did.

I am truly blessed.